Nothing meaningful, unless for you it is.
„No, sorry, this is all I could do for you two. But they agreed to give you the money as soon as you hand over at least another hundred pages, even if it isn‘t the full book. They really must be into this kind of stuff. And be sure, you will get the contract, just finish the book, that is all what they want.“
„Well, thank you Gabriela, I really appreciate your work. We should drink a coffee again some time soon, maybe?“
„Maybe? But don‘t forget your friend here, Mister Du-da.“
She laughed in a lovely way.
But we two just weren‘t too happy about the outcome.
I could see the fear in Paul‘s eyes, while he tried to smile towards Gabriela. They both had something ongoing, I am wasn‘t quite sure about, but it was an interesting connection I sensed.
The clock showed 10:00.
We left the building. Paul started breath in a more intense way.
„Hey, are you alright?“
„Yeah, yeah I am fine. But now I don‘t have the money and I don‘t have a book contract, I mean I will get it, when I finish the book, but we don‘t have time for this, not until this knife freak shows up.“
„I am sorry, I really thought, this would work, but look, they already were so exited and into the book, the whole atmosphere in the office seemed to be happier after we left.
I know, I know, this doesn‘t solve your problem right now, but maybe we will find another solution along the way.“
„An how? Time is almost up, again, I still have not a cent more than yesterday. I even lost some dollars for the food I bought.“
„I know, I know. But just try to think positive, trust me. It really helped me. I mean look, I got into writing, just in one day, while I never really thought about it before, at least not in a long time. So hey, and I also just tried to think positive.“
„Well, but it didn‘t seem like it, when you left me before, almost looked like you were in a rage or something. And I know why, we talked about this already.“
„Yes, at first I was angry again. I thought, I might have been wrong and I actually just wanted to get something positive for positive thoughts. I am not perfect, you aren‘t perfect. But well, we survived until now.“
We got into the subway, we didn‘t talk much and after some stations we got out again, heading towards Paul‘s flat.
But just one block away, just after walking around a corner, i saw the man from yesterday afternoon. He saw us and looked confused, even scared. Paul almost got a heart attack, it seemed. At least his body acted like it.
The man slowly moved towards us, after some long seconds of staring. Still confused he came closer until we three were standing together next to the corner.
„Hey am I don‘t really know what is going on here, but you clearly can‘t be Stavros son. I am sorry for what I did yesterday, but I really need your help.“
What was this all about? Paul didn‘t know either.
We just stared towards each other and towards this man, who didn‘t look like a killer anymore. More like a scared child.
Pages 61 – 63 of Lines, words, letters.
I am too tired of the audio book, so I won’t do it now and maybe never finish it, but we will see. Still thank you for listen or reading to what I shared with you. I don’t know how scary and strange it is or was, but I hope that now it will get better. Because I am pretty messed up in my mind, had a lot of theories, haunting thoughts and anxiety. Oh boy, that anxiety.
I really have to focus on the things around me and good things.
Otherwise I could fall into a dark, dark hole. Maybe I escaped it just now. I don’t know. I really don’t know a thing for sure. I can only trust in good things and God as something good.
Best wishes and hope!
John P. K.
P.S.: For those who don’t know, this book or concept for a book, has 92 pages in the format I used. So we have 2/3 now. 🙂